In an emotional open letter to his family, friends and fans, Craig Lucas opened up about his battle with depressions and his sexuality.
The Voice SA season 2 winner gives a detailed account of when he started feeling like he was losing touch with his reality, his battle with substance abuse, and ultimately hitting rock bottom.
An open letter to my family, my friends and my fans. pic.twitter.com/v2kpqzCaAG
— Craig Lucas (@Craigycracks) September 4, 2018
‘This is an update of an open letter I posted to social media at the start of 2016. I had been deeply unhappy for such a long time. I hit rock bottom on 15 January 2016. I was at work, thinking about how I nearly flung myself out of the train that morning. I’d been talking about suicide a lot,’ details Lucas as directly as possible on what it felt like when he lacked the will to live. He continues his letter; ‘it scared me. Suicide and mental illness runs in my family, especially amongst the men. My dad committed suicide when I was three. A number of other close family members did too – some succeeded, some didn’t.’
Just a year ago, he had been crowned as the winner for the singing competition and things *should* have been going well for him but he was drowning in depression and grappling with the fact or idea that he was a closeted gay man and was being advised against living his life proudly and as honestly as he wanted because it would have ‘alienated him from his market’.
Craig shared a story about a varsity friend he became extremely close to in 2011, eventually making the realisation that he had fallen in love. ‘That was the moment that it hit me – I was in love. I was unequivocally, profoundly, violently in love. I was unequivocally, profoundly, violently in love with a man,’ he shared, saying that the situation had left him confused.
After opening about about his sexuality in 2016 to family and friends, the success that came with being the winner of The Voice SA meant taking calculated decisions that were eating at him because although he should have been happier, he could not reveal that he was a gay man. ‘Then came The Voice. People started telling me to keep the fact that I was in a relationship with a man a secret,” he wrote, adding: ‘Before I knew it, I was right back in the closet again.’
The Hearts Exposed singer seems to have found his redemption and well on his way to better health. ‘So here I am pulling my best Frank Ocean. I welcome whatever is coming my way with an open heart and an open mind.’ We are sending all our love and positive thoughts his way.
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